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The Secret

My life truly is a miracle. I had a major operation fixing congenital defects to my stomach and oesophagus at the age of 2 then at the age of 53 they diagnosed I had been living my whole life with my colon in my left lung space, a hidden secret my body held. My next poem is about that time in my life 

My body held a secret, hidden locked away
Refusing to come out into the light of day
It shocked me when it surfaced and shocked the surgeon too, 
The most eminent physician amazed through and through

I’ve heard the word epiphany and wondered what it meant
A moment of revelation, something heaven sent
In that instant I viewed my life in a completely different way
3 was 4 and 5 was 6 there’s nothing else to say
It all made sense, a light switched on
The truth was out, the mystery gone
The hidden struggles, I understand
Dangers traversed Gods guiding hand
The relief was massive, colour exploded
The whole of me fully downloaded

I knew for sure it’s time to leave
The old behind but give space to grieve
I’d lived with the secret for so long
Needed time to sing a different song
Years progressed I embraced the new
The change in me was right on cue 
I don’t understand the process, why I felt so free
The missing piece, how it had burdened me
I only know that the secret is out
I’m free to run and jump and shout

I’m free to live again

John Lowton

October '22'

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